Self Portrait by Ashtara
Today’s post is a continuation of my last post Healing the Betrayal by the Masculine and if you haven’t read it please read it before this one to have more insight.
I’ve just returned from a two-day healing retreat not far from my home in the beautiful Cotswolds countryside. The betrayal wounding and mistrust of the masculine have been playing up for the past two weeks in my life in preparation for what was ready to be released and healed.
Two past lives with my son have come up for release. Both that I already knew about but this time more trauma came to light. I will only mention the first one which was life during Victorian times in Rome that ended in a tragic death for us both followed by a deep betrayal by the masculine that I wasn’t able to release in that lifetime.
Next what has been coming up for me for a while was why do I continue to attract so many men into my life; soul mates, and past life lovers. Part of the reason is that I’m in a Mary Magdalene soul group and it’s the energy playing in our group. Partly is because I’m still attracting men to fill the holes, and insecurities I hold about myself. They mirror them to me so I can heal them. And ultimately come to wholeness within and without. The truth is that I no longer need to do this.
The universe will be sending them to you until you recognise this. The place that you need to arrive at is an acknowledgement of your wholeness and divinity. Your sovereignty. You no longer need to repeat old traumas and recycle old stories disguised in different coats. You don’t need anything or anyone to make you feel whole. You are whole already. Everyone and everything around you is just to bring you to that awareness. Why do you need men? What do they give you? For me, it’s because I want to feel desired. Why do I need to feel desired? Because the old belief of unworthiness is still playing out. It’s time to build healthy relationships with men from wholeness.
And this brings me to the power of forgiveness. This work is everything and you are the one who has to do it. No one can clear this for you but you. Others can assist you but you have to do the work until the charge is released from your body and matrix. You must forgive everyone in each of the stories that have been playing out for you. You must forgive yourself. And you must ask for forgiveness from the others involved. You must remember that they were only playing the roles for you in order to heal and release old trauma and deep-seated beliefs. Below is an example of how I go about working with forgiveness. I feel the importance to write this here for myself and for those of you who align with this. Please adapt it to your own personal story. I like to do this while walking in nature.
To all the men,
Thank you for playing all the roles that you have played for me on this Earth walk. I love you. I honour you. I deeply respect you and your choices. Thank you for your love. Thank you for all the lessons.
I forgive you for all the hurt, betrayal and disappointment that I have felt. I forgive you for all the pain and sadness that you have caused me.
Please forgive me for every way that I hurt you, wronged you or caused you pain. Didn’t love you enough or loved you too much.
I forgive myself. I honour myself and my choices.
May we all come together in deep love, respect and honour. May those of us in perfect alignment come together in wholeness. May we rise together. May we remember the love who we are.
Then ask the Universe what you no longer need or wish to experience. And ask for what you want. And trust that in divine timing and in the alignment with your highest good it will be brought to you.
Sacred Love, Hana
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