We women feel that we have been deeply wounded by the patriarchy but I feel men carry much deeper wounding than us. What has been done to men has affected everything. The way men’s minds have been played with and manipulated has caused such imbalance on Earth.
Men are powerful protectors and providers. They fiercely protect their innocence when connected to their truth, to their hearts. They know deep down as much as we do how to restore balance and equilibrium. Only by letting go of these old hurts and coming together in a healthy deeply embodied way, we can create true lasting change.
As I’m deepening into that beautiful divine union with God/Source everything out of alignment is asking to be released. What came up next for me are unhealthy relationships I have/had with men across all my incarnations as a woman. I have worked on this last summer but now the next layer is coming up to clear. Perhaps I wasn’t ready yet to let it all go. So I’ve put myself into eleven days purification journey working with the elements to release all of this across all my timelines and incarnations of past, present, parallel and future lives.
I’m asking God to help me to release all times when I didn’t honour myself and my body. When I wasn’t honoured. When my sacred no wasn’t honoured. When I didn’t feel cherished, or loved. Accepted. Seen. Heard. Anywhere I sold myself for love, money, and attention. All times I was abused, violated, and manipulated by men. All time I was killed by men out of jealousy, out of hate. All times I felt betrayed, abandoned, disappointed, rejected, and hurt. When my boundaries were broken. When I was killed for my gifts, wisdom, light and standing in my truth. All time I was killed for speaking my truth. Releasing all the anger, rage, sadness, grief and despair I’m still holding onto. Releasing all the betrayal and abandonment wounds I’m still holding onto.
Asking for forgiveness from all men that I hurt, disrespected, and dishonoured. Didn’t accept who they are. Didn’t return their love. Didn’t appreciate and honour them. Didn’t respect them. Didn’t see them. Didn’t hear them. Manipulated them. Wronged them. Betrayed them. Seduced them for my own gains. When I wasn’t truthful with them. When I said hurtful words to them. Had unhealthy expectations. Felt dissatisfied in relationships with them. Looking for love in them. Looking for acceptance from them. Looking for safety in them. Looking for God in them. Looking for money in them. Looking for entertainment in them. Please forgive me.
Asking God to help me release all the guilt and shame I’m still holding onto. Asking to be released from anywhere I’m still punishing myself for any of these. Asking myself for forgiveness.
I’m sorry. Please forgive me. I love you. I forgive you. I love myself. I forgive myself.
Love always,
Hana x
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